The struggle is real

Today is all kinds of emotional for me. It’s not only the day that completes my first week back at the gym (yay me!) It’s also my dad’s birthday. He would have been 64. He died in 2011 from health issues that could have been prevented. Simply put, he didn’t take care of himself and he paid the price for it. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still angry with him. Sometimes your genetics deal you a crappy hand, but that doesn’t mean you have to sit there and take it. Yes, he had some genetic issues, but sitting there accepting them while knowing you are going to die if you don’t make changes is just unacceptable to me. 

Being healthy is a daily battle for me, both physically and mentally. I literally have to fight myself to get out of bed, to eat better, to move more, to drink more water, to create and keep routines, and more. This is not easy. The struggle is real and it’s not going away. Ever. This will be a life long battle for me and I am willing to accept that to fight for the person I want to be. I will not be a bystander in my own life. I will not go down without a fight. I will not allow other people to dictate who or what I can or cannot be. 

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Back to your regularly scheduled programming… 

I have a lot to do today so I dragged myself out of bed at 6:30 to start the morning and make time for the gym. I was right about my arms, they are quite sore today. Some oral and topical pain relief for them and my lower back was necessary to function.

I essentially had to force myself through today’s workout with lots of positive thinking. I was so motivational I rolled my eyes at myself. 

Elliptical .25 mile at 16 and 4.0 pace
Glutes 10 reps each side @ 85lbs, 70lbs, and 55lbs
Seated leg press
1 set of 10 reps @ 100lbs, 85lbs, and 70lbs feet apart, pressure on heels
1 set of 10 reps @ 100lbs, 85lbs, and 70lbs feet together, pressure on toes
2 sets of 10 reps @ 85lbs, 70lbs, and 55lbs feet apart, pressure on heels
2 sets of 10 reps @ 85lbs, 70lbs, and 55lbs feet together, pressure on toes
Squats 3 sets of 10

Sweat is fat crying… it’s still gross.

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